It’s so clear—now—but took a huge chunk of my lifetime to understand.
A few days ago, I was interviewed on a podcast, and the host asked me, “Why doesn’t everyone want to heal the wounds of their past? Why are we so resistant?”
I quickly responded, “Because we don’t know there’s anything that needs healing.”
Something’s really changed inside me these past couple of months. I’m working hard (and smart!) on my brand, putting in so much effort, yet none of it feels like “work.” I’m literally never even close to getting caught up on the ever-growing to-do list, but I’m just rolling with it—doing my best and letting what will be, be.
Emotionally, it’s the exact opposite of how I was when I started my consulting business—I was so ill-equipped for the emotional roller coaster that entrepreneurship is.
Now, starting my second business, I feel completely different, and it’s because I’ve healed the wounds of my past. I’ve done the work and understand that before, the roller coaster was so volatile because of the reality I was denying. I was lost and in a constant place of never thinking I was enough and that if I didn’t do something, it wouldn’t get done right, and all of the world’s problems were on my shoulders.
Looking back before healing, I’d never truly felt good in any other area of my life, so when it came to entrepreneurship, I just assumed that feeling good wasn’t supposed to be part of the deal.
My childhood was rough for me—I was completely without friends for almost four years and had needs at home that weren’t met. I spent decades denying that what happened left me with scars because I never knew what feeling good was and, thus, didn’t know there was anything that needed healing.
Now, what’s different is that when I look at everything that needs to be done, I prioritize MYSELF and WHAT I NEED more than the needs of the business. I make excellent decisions around my health and exercise routine, treating my body as the temple that it is. Because of my discipline, I’m down almost 10 pounds since the start of the year and at my lowest weight in a decade. Prioritizing my personal needs is keeping everything in alignment and me from feeling overwhelmed in a way I can’t manage.